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Reaping Screenwriting

Fuck.

Last semester I took a screenwriting class. The nightmare that is having a story with deadlines. Fuck no. Fuck off. Let it grow and twist naturally as it has for nine years already.

I had to take an incomplete, in no small part due to Arcane stealing half my plot lines halfway through the semester and my absolute refusal to make anything that’s been done before.

And today is the deadline. I am unwavered in my hatred for writing deadlines. But as it stands I have an F in this class. This class that I took because my mom started tearing up when she found out I’d abandoned my lifelong dream of becoming a writer and instead taken an interest in film. As David Lynch probably once said, fuck language, I want psychosexual nonsense and also to work with Kyle MacLachlan.

Anyways this is my accountability post that I’ll be writing and updating throughout the day. It will hopefully keep me on track and away from rewatching tick, tick… BOOM! instead of writing. Again.

12:35 PM

I have no class but I do have work at 11pm. To be honest, I don’t know what time my deadline is. I’m done with my morning therapy and my face is still damp and my nose is still raw. I haven’t eaten breakfast, so that’s what we’re getting up to now I guess. I want my pre-made cinnamon rolls, orange juice, frozen sausage and cheese sandwich (sorry Jewish ancestors), my meds, and an applesauce I will drink like a smoothie. And my premade iced coffee that does nothing but taste good. And… GO.

3:19 PM

I don’t wanna. I played Super Mario Galaxy 2 for awhile. I really don’t wanna. I can’t do it all today for sure for sure. I don’t wanna go to the dean’s office and CAPS again for the millionth time and explain that I have once again got wrecked by my disability that I definitely don’t have for sure. My therapist came up with an approach that might work and said we could brainstorm more options next week but the deadline’s today and I don’t wanna deal with this all semester, ‘cause that’s how the rest of my classes get wrecked. I’m gonna write another blog post, look at my to-do list and come back.

4:38 PM

Yeah no thanks post done

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